work hard, party harder

Never used to see the fun in going and having a crazy night out, but I guess I now understand the thing about "once you get a taste of it, you can't stop". Not saying I've been out all the time going absolutely wild, since my night outs have been pretty hit or miss o___o. Coincedence or not, it's always fun when Tamara's with me :D

Still, I'm not sure if it's all about the people you go with, cos a few times I've been out with all my closest friends and I still end up pretty bored. Maybe it's the good conversation with new people you get introduced to because for some reason it helps you to forget about everything else that's going on in your life :) orrr the complete opposite, where you just vent about all your problems to your friends over a $20 cocktail jug...

It's also struck me as weird that last night I had a regular (year 12 styled) 18th birthday party at a friends house with pass the parcel and pinatas like the good ol days and my parents seemed to be annoyed? It was like "why do you have to come home at midnight, when it's too early to cab home but too late for us to come get you!!" ehh I can't even explain what I'm trying to say right now...I feel like there are so many changes happening due to school --> uni transition, but none of it necessarily means *I'm* changing. AHH I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT, I think I should just go study now.

xo

easter break

I don't actually feel like I need a holiday .____. but I'll take what I can get haha :P I guess uni freedom is like having a holiday all the time? I freak out over assignments and tests but in hindsight it's nothing like year 12. Bit of stress pulled off an 11/12 and 20/25 for midsems phew! And psych assignment was smooth sailing cos I got it done a day early :)

I'm still deciding whether I genuinely like uni or not though. Public transport is SHOCKING, i absolutely hate trains/trams, especially on rainy days. My train line flooded last Tuesday and it took me 1.5 hrs to get to uni...and I'm yet to catch a train that runs on time. I miss the old high school days etc :( Having a little girls night in/catchup with high school friendsies tomorrow which should be nice! Pizza, popcorn, movies and twister...what more do you need!

Happy Easter everyone :D

xo

neglect!

Gaaaah it's weird how my internet priorities have changed now .___. but at the same time I still waste heaps of time on my computer...how is this possible!

Anyway so we're already 1/4 of the way through 2011, how fast was that :( Midsemester tests are over, chem was aced and bio was horrible...on the flip side, our new bio lecturer kept me awake for the first time in 3 weeks! Yay! He's actually so awesome, pacing around the whole lecture theatre spontaneously quizzing people and talking in a permanently ":D!" voice. Plus, we've moved on from plants to animals so it's finally the biology I *want* to do. So hopefully I won't fail this unit now haha...

I think/like to think I've found the balance between social events and studying...couple of weeks ago was the Monash ASEAN lounge night which I actually had fun at and met lotssss of people :)

And the other night there was a night market at uni which was SO packed so all we did was hang around in the dark for a few hours...prior to that was some solid goss sesh over coffee with the girls!

I've figured you get bombarded with so many new people at uni every day (I'm literally meeting at least 1 new person per day) that it's really nice just to chill out with 1 or 2 people...or even have some alone time. I started my psych assignment, which involved having to watch the sunset...I thought I'd be really bored so I brought along some headphones, but it was nice to just sit there with my thoughts and watch people :D (is that creepy?)

HOWEVER! I am still very bored with life...I figured out last night that this could be because I don't play piano anymore? I feel like I have no goals and no distractions (in a bad way) since I have no music related performance/exam anxiety and things like that. So maybe I'll go to the piano later today - after I finish at least 500 words of this psych essay! MUST REACH THIS GOAL AND FEEL SATISFIED :(

xo

so bored :D

Soooooo my internet is fast now...we rang Optus and complained, the did some crap and then dad was like "can we upgrade plans?" SO NEXT MONTH I GET 500GB HAHA O__O but it's so bad that it's fast now, because I'm abusing youtube etc and I'm way over my days elapsed %...if I don't slow the heck down they'll charge for going over 20gb

I don't know what else to do to kill time, seeing as I still have minimal work to do (biology can go suck it ahaha). I need a hobby! No seriously, that dance thing I joined started holding auditions and closing rehearsals until their first performance is over, so now I have nothing to do on the weekend =/

Suggestions?

xo

faster week

Phewwww, Friday already!

Ok admittedly, I may have exaggerated the WAHHHHHHHHHHH-ness of last week...ahahha. Emotional pmsy factors aside, uni is fine :P people are friendlier this week, but it still doesn't make it easier keeping friends...I didn't get say hi to the few people I met last week in my tutes, cos we sat in different spots and did work :( Psych tute was the most fun of all tutes cos we were actually encouraged to talk about issues and ethics etc...so I have some friends in psych I guess. Met the sweetest girl in one of my lectures but I dunno the chances of seeing her again haha...also met a nice 2nd year in my breadth lecture, but she probably won't rock up often/2nd year so again, dunno the chances of seeing her again either =___=

Had my first bio prac as well....biology is the most confusing thing in the world! So thankful the guy next to me was equally as confused, we bonded over imagining where a nucleus would go and making up our own pond life ahaha. Also stained half my fingers rather than the slides...and the good thing is, assigned seating means I'll actually get to see/remember the people around me (already forgotten their names oops). Miffy was totally also on my table, it was kinda like a mini high school reunion :P

Anyway I need to read up on bio since nothing makes sense. Today was good though, it was like vce chem with proteins/dna etc yayy...plus I had a massive bento box for lunch and bubble tea. I can't believe how hungry I am these days omgosh

xo

longest week of my life

So uni's not as amazing as I expected =/ partly cos making friends is tiring, keeping friends is even more tiring, not seeing familiar faces all the time is strange, going a day without seeing a familiar face is upsetting, not understanding anything in biology is frustrating...the list goes on. It's not that I'm having a terrible time, I think I just built up uni to be AWESOMEEEE in my head and then...it's really not. The week went by SOOO SLOOOOWLY, and after Wednesday's rock bottom of being sad, it went by even more slowly =____= I think the thing I hate the most is the fact that everyone's breaks rarely coincide, so even if I've made a new friend, they're rushing off to calculus while I have 2 hours to chill. With nobody.

Nah okay it's not that horrible. The good part is I'm becoming closer to the friends I used to be vaguely acquainted with, and I'm getting better at accepting it when people literally turn away from me when I say hi. This shouldn't happen more than once but it's happened 3 times...is my face scary .___. ? I guess it's also good to know people get too busy for you so they semi-cut you out of their lives...makes me realise that I can do better (among other things) even if it initially hurts like crap. And the amount of public transport is SOOOOO time consuming :(

I miss high school.

xo

...well it's been quite a while

I don't even know where to begin, I haven't blogged in SO long =/ sooo since that fateful day of December the 13th, I have travelled from Hong Kong to Japan to China and back, got accepted into Science at Melbourne Uni, been flooded/rained on multiple times (wearing the same pair of shoes) and caught up on the many TV shows I've missed in the month that I was travelling...

I dunno how to sum up my massive 3 month(ish) holiday, but basically I'll NEVER be as freeeeee as I am right now - no more school, uni ahead is the BEST break of my life! And as my travel buddies and I concluded, this freedom won't ever come again in our lives? Cos let's face it, once uni starts, it'll be uni year after year, then we'll get a job, settle down, babies etc etc and freedom will next come when we retire O__O in which we'll have to worry about our health ahahah

BUT ANYWAY I am SO excited for uni! O week starts tomorrow and I can't wait to make new friends :) I hope my host group aren't retarded. and I hope they won't think I'm retarded if I decide to use this -

Me: So...how much does a polar bear weigh?

Potential friend: I dunno, how much?

Me: Enough to...break the ice :D

........oh god I'm never gonna make friends am I

xo

omg

...holy crap. my life is perfect right now. (except my new phone doesnt work ...yet)

xo

RECAP

What have I been up to/so busy with this week?

...not very much. As in, I can't remember what I've been doing, but I think I was fairly busy? Last night we had our annual Christmas piano concert for the Royal Childrens' Hospital, which was a success (I think). Last year we raised over $2000 so hopefully we can top it this year :D Susan hosted it with some name pronouncing errors...Jacky seems to suck at spelling peoples' names, making me look stupid when there's errors in the program that I made =__=. There was this ADORABLE little boy who wore suspenders and a bowtie, and playing a violin duet with this little cellist girl and stuffed up twice and got all flustered...SO DANG CUTE OH MY GOSHH

I performed last :| wwhhhhyyyy mmmeeeee, it wasn't even a WOO FINALE kinda song, I mean come on..Clair de Lune REALLY? But it went well...wait yeah that's what I was so busy with this week, PIANO. Here's a photo of the awesomethree, est. 1998...I love how 12 years on, the first thing we do after concerts (apart from eat food before it disappears) is get changed out of our damn dresses...and then cop it cos we're still wearing makeup and look stupid anyway

I think other than piano I've actually done nothing :| Went out with Ian again some time last week and he got me chocolate WOOOO...it's almost sad how easy I am to please haha. Lack of activity this week aside, SCHOOOOOOLIES TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Watch this space (and pray for good weather)...

xo

funsies

Went to see Social Network with Ian today, and blogging about it makes me feel like I'm the facebookguy who goes out with his girl and then bitches about her on the internet LOL (except I'm not here to bitch). The movie was surprisingly good...I kinda thought "pffft if I wanted to know about facebook I would just go on facebook" but the acting was good, the backstory was interesting and I lol'd at the end where he sits there refreshing the page, hoping his ex will accept his friend request ahaha. Dunno how much of it was true, but it was pretty sad how he can be the youngest billionaire and seem to have everything but of course, not the girl. Also disturbing to see London Tipton having dirty sex in a toilet :| HAHA

We had lunch until I pretty much exploded - never have I ever finished a whole Nando's meal arghhh...felt too fat to move afterwards, so we just talked til he had to go meet a doctor to absorb some medical knowledge for his upcoming interviews. Here I am chilling and hanging out for results, forgetting that some nerds out there actually passed the UMAT hahahaah

xo