swotvac 2.0

I thought I was more on top of things this semester...but no. Exams start in one week from today, and I have an assignment due in 6 days, and 4 solid days of studying left.

Why?

Because for some weird reason I have more shifts than ever before at the fruitshop, and I worked 15 hours last weekend...I offered to cover HALF an 8 hour shift on thursday, but for some reason they suck shit at maths, and have halved it to equal a 6 hour shift. EXCUSE ME, THAT'S NOT HALF! And asif you even tell me there's nobody to "cover" for me when I'm the nice one who is covering in the first place! The best they could give me was a 5.5 hour shift. Like 30 minutes would really make a difference, soo stupid...

Things have started to pick up in terms of general busyness as well, I applied for Aa committee midsemester intake (not alcoholics anonymous) and they took me! It's a nice extra responsibility, and really interesting to see how things work behind the scenes when I've been attending the events all year. So many added complexities with understanding how things work, discussing things on their email system and fb group, selling tickets for the end of exams party, retreat coming up soon... and look, it's my face on their website! LOL *feels special*. I thought it might be really hard to fit in with everyone, cos the committee all know each other/have their own jokes and such, but everyone's been really kind and welcoming of me and the other 2 new members. Looking forward to a big year :D

In between end of exams and going to america, I have 10 days to re-enrol for 2012, apply for overseas exchange, pack my suitcase, make a list of things to buy, and celebrate some birthdays and going away parties...I swear there's more, but that's al I can think of right now. I need to calm down and get crackin into the books :(

xo

no more bio!

So the essay question was something like "Describe the female menstrual cycle (uhh as opposed to the male menstrual cycle?) and the hormones associated with it"

...UM WHAT? not only could I not think of a sufficient essay response but that must've been pretty awkward for all the guys in the room to answer .___.

In hindsight I stressed too much about plants and plant hormones, and completely neglected humans/animals haha. OH WELL when are plants ever gonna be useful in my life anyway...unless I decide I wanna grow marajuana tomorrow.

xo

swotvac

Ohmygod I swear next semester I will:

• Show up to all lectures (pretty good at doing this now though)
• Not fall asleep during lectures
• Not abuse uni wireless and download phone apps
• Not play on said apps during lectures
• Print out notes for the week over the weekend
• Use these notes during lectures and actively listen
• Revise and reread lecture info afterwards...or at least on the train ride home

MASS REGRET FOR NOT DOING ALL OF THIS STUFF THIS SEMESTER :( I was happily like "oh all I need to do is pass!" until I was kindly reminded that first year counts towards my GPA if I wanna get into post-grad med. I think it's time to drop out and be homeless now.

xo

can't wait for a fresh start

I've been working pretty hard today, for the first time since exams started...partly because my internet broke after lunch so there wasn't much else to do :( But just when I REALLY needed a break, there was literally nothing I could do to chill out, so I switched from maths to chemistry and BOY DID I EXPERIENCE PROACTIVE INTERFERENCE OR WHAT (why I am referencing psych. I have finished psych. Screw you VCE.)

Basically after intensive study, my brain felt like it was a milkshake and I couldn't do anything right; even the easy stuff that I could normally do with my eyes closed...nah actually my eyes need to be open to read the question. Except this time with my eyes open, I couldn't read the question anyway IT'S COS I'M ASIAN ISN'T IT?

I cannot wait til I can officially throw all my maths out the window/in the toilet/down the drain/into a fire (but most likely into a recycling bin) tomorrow afternoon so I can focus on the one subject that I like...except my current problem is I have a very low chance of doing well in this subject due to...lots and lots of proactive interference.

Time to go back to methods because...I'm gonna fail pretty hard tomorrow. This will probably be due to my intensive hunger that will kick in midexam...

xo

(ps hi Tamara and Viv :D)

6 to go

In 24 hours time, I should have finished my language analysis and moving onto my final essay ever on 1984...WEEOW! 18 more days and I will be totally. Free.

It feels like time has come to a complete grinding halt, but at the same time if it moves any faster I'll fail all my exams due to lack of preparation. I'm currently not sure how to even study for English...do I just read old essays/study notes again and again, do another essay under time pressure, do some plans...?

I think I'll just wing it =___= no kidding, under exam pressure I come up with some incredible bullshit that you just can't do at home under fake exam pressure. Plus, I've lost my quote sheet amongst my table mess...even though I tidied it 5 days ago.

Another big issue is...how does one resist going to the toilet for 3 hours?! I can't just get up to go pee without losing precious writing time :(

xo

having a meltdown

I'm SO sick of this...clearly I haven't stuck to my plans and all I wanna do is just bury VCE into a pit =__= I'm *doing* work but NONE of it feels productive. I spend 2 hours memorising half my Japanese oral, and forget it all the next day. HOW IS THAT FAIR? Plus I hand in some work to my English tutor thinking I'm awesome because I've actually made the effort to TRY and she gives it back to me telling me that it's not bad, but it's not good either...so its like I wasted my time yet again. Don't even get me started on how I should tackle Chem/Psych, I don't even know where to fricken start...

UMAT was an absolute failure, no chance of doing undergrad med, but that's totally cool with me...sorts out my preference dilemma anyway :P Until dad started adding the pressure and being all like "so you'll do biomed, and then do med right? so if you do science, will that take you to med? how many years before you can study med?". WELL YES I *DO* WANNA DO MED AT SOME POINT IN MY LIFE, BUT IF YOU KEEP TALKING LIKE THIS MAYBE I DON'T WANNA DO IT ANYMORE HUH!

So I got over that pretty quick aha, until today when the topic of VCE just WOULD NOT leave the dinner table. So I ran away and had a cry/vented to a few friends - girls definately being the more comforting of the 2 genders haha.

I just hope all this pressure/stress/work/emotional instability is worth that stupid 4 digit number on Dec 13th

xo

"study vacation"

After x number of weeks since year 12 began, there's only 6 weeks until exams and I am SO RUNNING OUT OF STEAM :( It's so hard to just keep pushing on, knowing that you've *cough* worked so hard all year and there's only that liiiiittle bit to go...but...still, I'm suffering from a massive case of I CANNOT BE BOTHERED!

Plan for the next few weeks is 3 practice exams per day - 1 methods a day, 1 chem a day and 1 psych/english a day.

AND SOMEWHERE IN THERE I AM EXPECTED TO MEMORISE MY ENTIRE DETAILED STUDY. IN TWO WEEKS! IS MY JAPANESE TEACHER INSANE OR DOES SHE SERIOUSLY HAVE THAT MUCH FAITH IN US?????

I'm literally not leaving the house for the next 2 weeks, unless it's to go for a run. Because I SWEAR I will get fit these holidays........oh sorry, I mean study vacation =_____=

Time to go, I'm already lagging behind schedule :( here's some from the Jazz Soiree on Thursday night!

xo

SO MUCH TO DO, SO LITTLE TIME ARGH

August is about to roll around and I'm about to have another hectic fortnight of 2010 :( So this week was the UMAT (section 3 fail) and last weekend was a million rehearsals for the concert...I've handed in no work at school and used the same excuse on every teacher (it's working!) and its making me feel really really guilty...

Chem SAC tomorrow...AAAND Jap exchange girls coming tomorrow! Meaning I'll get no work done this weekend AGAIN because we'll have to take them out, plus I have mooore rehearsals this Sunday.

So I guess I'll wing my English SAC on Monday/Tuesday?

THEN WEDNESDAY IS THE NIGHT OF THE BIG CONCERT! Which I'm yet to write my speech for.....

I might get a chance to breathe for an hour on Thursday night (Jap girls leave) then it's time for a GOOOOOD night sleep so I can have the energy to Scotch formal it up on Friday night :D which yeahh, I'm actually really looking forward to because I seriously need to relax right now AAAAAAARGGHHHH

xo

OHHHH YEAHHHH

FINISHED MY MID YEARS WOOP WOOP

Both went down alright :) Pretty sure my psych stuffups were the same as other people's, so that should be okay. Chem...haha, for the triglyceride question I wrote 1500L instead of 1.5 L cos I was working in mL and forgot to change it in the end - but I managed to get my units right anyway =___= sooo yeah I'm gonna hope for consequential?

Did some shopping afterwards (but bought nothing) and I'm MAJORLY STRESSING OUT ABOUT THE GAT TOMORROW OMGOMGOMG!!!

......haaaaa yeah riiiight! WOOHOO FREEDOM BABYY (except for writing my English oral...ew)

xo

hello last month of the first half of the year

It's ridiculous how fast this year is moving :( One week til midyears and I have no idea how I'm managing, and I have no idea how I WILL manage.

So they've cancelled the end of year revue, and removed the captain's final speeches...so HOW are year 12's supposed to celebrate the end of our year?? Having a captains meeting with CJ about it tomorrow morning to discuss our "options" ...

I'm also finding it hard to balance conflicting commitments...like every Tuesday morning I've been forced into accompanying a string group, but I have captains meetings as well. I thought it would be fine, I'd just rehearse for a bit then go to my meeting at 8, but this fails every week because the freaking teacher doesn't show up until 7:55, so HOW am I supposed to get decent rehearsal out of it? Then she expects me to be okay with going to my meetings late and then tells me to skip my meetings every 2nd week - UMM...HELLO, I wouldn't BE at this rehearsal if I wasn't music captain, so why are you telling me to ditch my captain duties? I'm already in like a million music things and there's not that many commitments as a student leader so I'M SORRY for prioritising my life =____=

On top of that...Psych and Chem midyears are in a week, English sac in two days, English oral sac right after mid years HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH helppppp! :(

xo

hollaaaaaa long post

CAN 2010 JUST...LIKE...STOP GOING SO FAST? I can't believe it's May :(

Not gonna lie, things have started to get pretty weird these days...not a bad weird, but an unexplainable weird. You'd think by now people would have figured out who they are and where they stand but things just *never* stop changing and it's just...WEIRDDD. I guess I'm just terrible at adjusting to change, so I'll have a bitchfest every night until I get over it :D aaand the wheel of life goes on.

There's NEVER a SAC-less week and it's getting REALLY tiringgg! So in the last weekandahalf:

• English SAC - A+ woop!
• Psych SAC - $*&#@!!! If I had known the question wanted a specific depth cue rather than the general group of depth cues I WOULD HAVE ANSWERED IT PROPERLY WOULDN'T I! So I answer it wrong, meaning the 2nd part is wrong, meaning the 3rd part is wrong and psych doesn't friggin mark consequentially. I GOT FULL MARKS EVERYWHERE ELSE BUT NOOOO it's just an A instead. BEFORE MY LIFETIME ENDS I WOULD LIKE TO GET FULL MARKS IN *SOMETHING* (other than music perf. that doesn't count.)
• Methods SAC - JUST passed part 1, but did really well on part 2 and 3! So I'm pretty happy :) Would have been a solid A but yeah, the shit mark pulled me back down to my usual B/B+ haha...no complaining *shuns methods*
• Chem SAC - ...no idea. Did it today, and I'm pretty confident it's A+ worthy :D even though my ester smelt like a salted orange cake...beats Leah's "dusty room and newly photocopied paper" ester hahahaha

YUP. screw psych.

Production is coming up reaaaal soon and it's gonna be so amazing! All this music is actually killing me though...I'll pretty much be at school for 11 hours tomorrow and my voice can only handle so much singing. It's only fun in swing choir and singing with Diana ♥ everything else is getting painful...especially Tuesdays with Amadeus to captains meeting, no spares, senior choir and orchestra. And this week/next week is Robyn's until 9pm. SO BASICALLY I don't get a single second to breathe, yay

SO, I registered to vote the other week and now I'm on the electoral roll all ready to go for the elections this year! Booked my L's test (finally) for this Saturday cos I need a non-school ID pretty soon for when I turn 18 hehe, and I need it to register for the UMAT anyway.

Biggest dilemma as of now - do I want to do med at Monash or biomed at Melbourne? Med would be great, but I don't really want to dive straight into 30 contacts hours a week thankss...its like duuude I just finished school, cut me a break! But what if I get accepted and don't want it anymore...it's too risky to reject it and hope I'll get into biomed at Melb for 2nd round offers? Also, what if I do med for a while and realise I hate it...I don't wanna stay in frigging Monash, I'm only considering it cos it's the only place that offers med...

AHHHH SOMEONE STOP TIME FOR ME!

xo

goodbye 1/3 of year 12

...hello to the next 2/3rds of year 12...tomorrow :(

So let's make some predictions for term 2 shall we:

• Another sickness, conveniently before midyears due to my internal systems crashing from studying too hard *cough*
• Another tearful breakdown because NOO A BAD SAC MARK MEANS ITS THE END OF THE WORLDDDD!
• Mass amounts of excitement for formal, of course :D
• Again trying to restrain myself from the endless vortex known as the internet
• Excessive drama, meaning I won't be able to stay off msn due to late night gossip sessions
• Being sore for a week because of my inability to run 400m...
• Music related exhaustion...ohhh happy days.

GOALS:

• OWN my midyears...I can DO itttt, for god's sakes it's only 2 subjects, if I can't do it then how am I gonna manage the endofyears?! *breathes*
• Be as organised as I was during chorals fever
• Get better and less nervous when I talk in assembly :(
• Finish writing year 12 song! And sing a whole song properly with Diana
• Start averaging A+'s for my SACs...gotta pick up my gameee

Muuuuum...iron my blaaazer. Also, should I wear winter uniform tomorrow? it's FREEZING?!

xo

10 post it notes

what i have done so far

• Tidied room
• Made a study timetable
• Half of methods holiday homework YESS
• Half of psych holiday homework
• 90% all good for UMAT section 3
• 70% all good for UMAT section 2
• ...10% all good UMAT section 1 :( aah
• Memorised q1 of Jap oral lmao
• Made 150 formal invitations

progress shot :D viv cutting up the black cardboard, cutting up the white pearly paper, cutting up the invitation slips, cutting ribbon with me, writing everyone's names...basically yeah, doing everythinggg! All I have to do is cut 4 slits in the black cardboard, thread and tie ribbon WHICH IS ACTUALLY A LOT MORE TIME CONSUMING THAN IT LOOKS K? 8 hours of this yesterday, to the point where we didn't eat lunch and my hands were shaking like a madwoman by the time dinner was fed haha

you'd think there was sweet production line happening until you look at the *extremely tidy* table.

THERE IS STILL SO MUCH TO DO AHHHH!

I don't mean formal invites...like...everything else?!

Stuff left to do:

• Chem revision (currently in progress)
• English lang analysis (this should take a day)
• Memorise Jap AHHHHH
• Get those UMAT things up to 100%! haha
• Get ahead in methods
• Buy presents for three 18ths. help, what to gett?!
• Write year 12 songgggg
• Fill in voting form and get my L's ha

xo

judgement and stalking

So in my spare periods I like to just...do nothing and mostly gossip with Sam :D and by gossip, we literally talk about the same thing in a new way - bitch about mutual friends, dish dirt on nonmutual friends, complain about something/anything/everything, dig into each other's love life and so on HAHAHA yknow, girly thingssss. We're not being mean or anything, just need to get it out of our system cos my excuse for everything is IT'S YEAR 12.

But the other day, we were being really judgemental about someone. Can't remember what it was, but it was something petty like...that chick's has weird...eyebrows or something I dunno BUT ANYWAY

THIS IS HOW I FEEL TALKING IN ASSEMBLY

I feel like some shithead little kid is sitting amongst everyone, slouching in their seat, twirling their hair and thinking "what. a. retard." In my mind, everyone is sitting there judging me whilst I embarrass myself because I can't ad lib to save my life. I don't know how to be funny or entertain people. I can BE funny sometimes but that just comes out naturally; it's not like I script my life out like I do in assembly =/

But whatever, continuing on...

So Sam and I were facebook stalking people etc, then we came to realise that someone else could be doing the exact same thing about us D: Like there's people on facebook you always see tagged in photos so you eventually know their name but the thing is you've never freakin met them in real life so you feel like a pedo

Either I'm alone here, but I've randomly seen people on the street that I actually recognise from fb. And this has happened more than twice. IS MELBOURNE REALLY THAT SMALL?

xo

ps ALSO, FORMAL IS STRESSING ME OUT =__= SHOULD I HIRE A LIMO&GET HAIR AND MAKEUP DONE AND NOT BRING A DATE, OR BRING A DATE BUT NO LIMO/HAIR/MAKEUP? I am so not doing both. $90 a ticket is way way too much, and $90 for makeup is also way wayy too much. I have been told leave it to fate but I CAN'T HANDLE LEAVING IT TO FATE LOL

spasmodic

YUP I A+'d that first chem sac :D we didn't get a mark, but there was red pen all over my work...which I dunno if marks were taken off for that but whatever! FIRST A+ IN CHEM EVER

Gran gave me $300 for Chinese New Year D: something about 6 $50 notes being lucky...well...I'm definately not complaining! Also got like $20 from Lisa's fam (thaanks!) and we're going to Bob's* house for dinner tonight so fingers crossed for more money (selfishness WHEE)

Weekend homework checklist

• Japanese pg 14, 15, 16
• Methods Ex 9A, 9B, 9C
• Psych questions
• Chem Ch3 questions

I went to Paicey's office on Friday after school to ask about the combined concert and she pretty much shot me down, but told me to talk to CJ. I'm gonna harrass the head of social service to help me push for this, but so far my chances of organising this is looking pretty bad. Here's my list of arguments when I go propose this to CJ:

• School's 120th birthday, so we should celebrate our relationship with other schools
• Benefits students to learn from a larger ensemble
• Only 2 rehearsals, so it won't take up a lot of time
• Both rehearsals and performance will be held at the other schools so we don't have to worry about booking the hall and opening the school up whatever whatever
• Will involve small number of us, maybe 10 (this is a lie)
• Will be held after the cathedral service, after production, after midyear exams and before the annual concert in the 2 weeks where nobody has any stress (this has to be confirmed with the other 2 schools but who cares)
• In regards to MY wellbeing, I work better when I'm busy (with an A+ to prove it) and I'll never be as busy as I am now with chorals and stuff...

COME ON THOSE ARGUMENTS HAVE GOT TO BE FOOLPROOF! Worst comes to worst I'll haul in the other 2 captains and the 3 of us can just grovel until she caves

xo

*My dad's interpretation of someone's name is usually wrong so I'm not actually sure if the guy's name is seriously Bob. Last time I met a girl called Laura and I called her Laura every time we met at dinners...few months later I find our her name is actually Lorna and Dad had told me the wrong thing. AWKWARD. Also, I've never heard of a guy my age called Bob...but I said the same thing about the name Fred and then whaddaya know I meet a Fred.

one week down

...this is CRAZY

I mean I knew year 12 would be a load, but I had no idea it would be THIS MUCH!

It's gotten to the point where I ALWAYS feel unproductive even if I'm doing all my required homework - it's like productivity comes from the EXTRA unrequired work you do...

So on the weekend, I wrote an essay and did all the bits of homework from 4 other subjects and STILL FELT REALLY LAZY!! I don't know what's wrong with me...

I felt accomplished when I finally finished writing our house's original for chorals. but that was the extent of my productivity.

APART FROM THAT HOUSE CHORALS IS TAKING OVER MY LIFE!

I'm gonna be so glad when it's over (but sad because it's over...) cos I can have my life back. For about 2 days, before I get stuck into organising combined concert, rehearsing for production, rehearsing for annual concert, rehearsing for speech night blahblahblah WHEN WILL THIS END!

Also what's with the "Hello you just started school. I'm going to throw 50 sacs in your face, starting with chem. In 3 days! Oh, and I hope you enjoy the week with 2 english sacs, 1 psych sac and 1 jap sac...and if you're REALLY lucky, who knows? I might just give you a methods sac too :D"

xo

a condensed version of this week so far

Monday

• Learnt school song descant p1
• Methods hwk Ch 1A, 1B, 1C
• Psych hwk, write a report on a famous woman psychologist
• Meet Mrs Byant at lunch, made a huge list of notices for assembly
• Doctors at 4:30pm

Tuesday

• Collect 120 photocopies of chorals set song, distribute to chairwomen + guidelines and venue sheet
• Abuse the school with venue sheets
• Captains meeting at 8am
• Jap hwk pg 8-11
• Chem tutoring at 6:45

Wednesday

• Chorals meeting 8am
• Meet with music 3/4 girls to talk or whatever
• PRINT ASSEMBLY NOTES...MUST REMEMBER THIS
• Start chorals rehearsals at lunch, make sure keyboard is in science lab for roll call rehearsals
• Distribute more music to Susan & instrumentalists...oh shit gotta finish writing Sharmaine's part
• Methods hwk ch 1D
• DO ROBYN'S WORK
• Lorna's congratulations dinner

Thursday

• Induction service rehearsal
• Assembly D: AHHH
• Sign up for all the stuff in the music school...
• Methods tutoring at 4:30

Friday

• SCHOOL PHOTOS OH NO - nts bring blazer, light makeup is 大丈夫
• Jap Kanji test pg 63-67
• Robyn's at 4:30

Weekend

• Notate original melody, finish writing the rest + lyrics and come up with a title?
• Start collecting chorals info from all chairwomen
• Study Jap vocab
• Do all of Rod's work T____T
• English persuasive speech essay thing whatever it is
• Methods 1E and 1F
• Psych sheet
• Chem sheet
• PATIENTLY WAIT FOR LAURA AND MICHAEL TO REPLY TO ME ABOUT THE COMBINED CONCERT!! JESUS WHY CANT LAURA REPLY FASTER ON FACEBOOK, AND WHY CANT MICHAEL *HAVE* FACEBOOK! well. at least biro and rob care, and they're not even at school anymore. and why can't i stay AWAY from facebook? ahh.

Will update this as the week goes on...this is driving me crazy; 2 days in and there's enough for me to do to last 2 weeks

xo

house chorals update

Special item: Madeline - script complete

Instrumental: "Habanera" by Bizet - 5/6 of the arrangement complete

Songs chosen: "In Two Straight Lines" by Carly Simon, "I'm Always Chasing Rainbows" by Judy Garland, "What a Wonderful World" by Louis Armstrong ...one more *thinking* or *action* song needed (ANY SUGGESTIONS?)

Original: 1/4 complete

Dance: NO IDEA. NEED TO BE UPDATED ON THIS

xo

2nd host family

Ayano got swine flu so right now I7m with my 2nd girl called Misa :D Had a lot of fun with her these days, we went to a game centre, did some shopping and we:re going to Disneyland tomorrow! Her dad and little brother speak English fairly well so I'm feeling less language tired these days :)

But physically tired? Um hell yes...sleeping on a futon isn[t too comfortable, and theres a lot of walking around every day. PLUS they go to school on Saturday WHAT THE HELL!

Gotta go sleep, 5:30 start tomorrow -_}____^

FREAKIN KEYBOARD!!

=___--=

xo

spot of trouble

Ayano has swine flu so 1) I have nobody to talk to except my okaasan and 2) I have to change families tomorrow

ahhh

xo