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Just got home from a piano lesson and I think I'm losing it =__= Few weeks ago, my teacher went to the US to visit her son, so I had around 2 weeks without lessons...of course I slacked, but I still practiced more than usual - twice a day + accompaniment work (which is 4 to 8 extra pieces). Yeah, how is that slacking? I suppose I just practice brainlessly and play for the fun of it...

Anyways, so there's this one Mozart that I've been practicing to hell and back every single day because my tone/sound control sucked...all my other pieces (including my unit 2 exam pieces) I just blah around every odd day or so :) So no surprise that she told me my other pieces needed some serious work hahaaa. Lesson was nearly ending, we went through the Mozart and she stopped me after a page and told me to stop concentrating so hard on controlling my sound/tone o.o After telling me to focus on it for 2 weeks? Fine. I can deal with that...so I started again and relaxed some more and it started to sound pretty good!! :D Mum came to pick me up and she asked if I had improved (she's the one who has to put up with me practicing this at 10pm)

The answer?

"HAHA IMPROVE? NO *laughing*"

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THANKS. YEAH THAT'S RIGHT, FAIL TO NOTICE HOW BLOODY HARD I WORKED ON MY CONTROL WHEN YOU SPECIFICALLY TOLD ME TO PRACTICE IT WHILE YOU WERE GONE!!! AAAAAARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!! AND SIF NOT NOTICE THOSE FIRST 4 NOTES AT THE START THAT I GO OVER 50 TIMES A DAY GETTING THEM PERFECTLY EVEN!!!

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I HATE to sound like a whiny little kid coz I know that telling me I haven't improved is some dodgy asian way of encouraging me...but gimme a break man, some non-asian encouragement is I dunno...NICE?! ESPECIALLY since I told her I walked my hand into the bathroom door and the knuckle keeps jamming up...you know how joints lock and you have to crack it? Problem is, my finger knuckle won't crack so it just gets locked and its bloody painful

I'm actually dreading next year...what, with my licentiate exam + VCE unit 3 + school accompaniment + outofschool accompaniment + production... OVERLOAD MUCH!!! It sucks, because I love being at the piano since it's the one place where I can...gain control? Sure doesn't feel like that right now =__= and my eyes are all puffy from crying (that's how I've been dealing with piano pains for 11 years, shut up haha) and pms just blows things a bit out of proportion as well (coz you had to know)

...On the flip side, I got a new shampoo and now my hair smells like strawberry and peach cakes :D

xo

(ps @ Ben re: fun blog entries as of late - you spoke too soon :P haha, nah its coz I'm on holidays and I'm doing fun things :D)